Positive Patti

Since starting this blog I have found that it keeps me quite accountable, which I love! I don't know who reads this, besides my mom and best friends, but I pretend that sometimes at the end of the day I have to report to Patti, and in doing that I don't want to do anything that would disappoint her... so everyday I try to do positive things that will help myself grow as a person.

First I want to share with you a confession- and this is something I think about that is not positive, but I have to tell you, because it drives me crazy ... on a daily basis, and that is-

I am constantly wishing Edmund would call, write or walk into my life.

OK, sounds hopelessly sad, it does... and I was telling this to an older and much wiser friend of mine today and she says,

"That is OK... that thought will fade, and even if it doesn't and he somehow manages to come back in your life I hope you will realize that you have grown and that you are more deserving than the way he treats you."

Definitely makes sense. So whenever I think that little thought I WILL follow it with what I deserve and that is.

A man who treats me well, who will love me for me and will want to be with me through Hell and High Water...that is that- no sacrificing anymore.

And I know I will find it because there is no looking back in the past and no being bitter as Patti would say, because there are great guys out there... and HEY, there were plenty of cute guys in the grocery store this evening... so maybe I'll just have to go "shopping" more often. Although next time I should probably fix my hair.


ANYWAY, with these thoughts I have done several positive things today that have helped turned my frown upside down and that includes the following:

1. Ate healthy today.
   
2. Helped my mother move storage *I like to call it "lifting"*
3. STARTED 5K training- ran 3 miles with my bestie... and wow, my legs hurt, but they feel sooo good!! http://www.coolrunning.com/engine/2/2_4/142.shtml

So as my much wiser friend helped me realize, I am going to grow as an individual and how I do that is totally up to me, and with the help of Patti, I know I will become the great person that is being covered up by a slight broken heart.

WHAT WILL YOU DO TO BECOME THE BEST YOU?